Musings in a Hotel Room -- Written at Comfort Suites, San Jose, 5/18/08 ....

THE LOVE AFFAIRS: An Interlude from Life… ........
-- Within the womb of this room,
the ocean's breath is my lover's caress… ....
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Part I:

I stand on the mountains,
on the top of the rock,
At the edge of the Sea,
naked and free…
Ready to fly, ready to leap
into azure depths of infinity....

Enveloped in this yellow room –
Mirrored selves shine everywhere,
I walk naked as a woodland nymph
through the forest of the senses
– sensual, untouchable,
cherishing each breath,
each perfection of form with this body blessed
– moving proudly,
fearlessly,
I float through gilded castle.....

Standing naked at the window,
'neath the smile of the Moon
-- my ever constant lover, faithful friend, father.
For now this is enough
to fill my cup.....
In the solace of this place
At last I have found respite
--from the aching hearts, the empty lives,
scattered souls, searching eyes
and all our busyness.....

In this peaceful shrine of pure aloneness,
I close my eyes and faintly smile
--A smile of dreams, past and future,
of other worlds and other lives perhaps.....
The words keep pouring forth
from within this time, within this shrine
–long repressed, aching to be expressed,
in the poetry of souls
–-Hidden dreams, anger, hurt,
remorse, regret,
guilt and longing, joy and light,
connect and disconnect,
judgment and condemnation.....

But in the very, very end,
all I can ever say,
Is this love was always there….
So much so, I let it spill out everywhere
in hopes that you'd stand there --
Constant as the moon, with lover's eyes and hands,
To shore up the rivers of my heart
and quench again this thirst.
To let my lips taste your mouth again,
and drink the tenderness of wine
That once flowed free
from your heart's cup to mine.....

PART II:
The full Moon's white porcelain face,
light of eternal lovers' smiling eyes and gentle mouth,
His dark black velvet, warm soft embrace
Cloaks round me now in tight black lace.....
In bodice secure I stand demure,
Moon's light radiating from my face.
I stand alone, regal, proud,
Fearless in the black of Night.
in Woman full, I laugh out loud.....
The Path not yet lit before me lies.
But strong am I, and patient, wise,
Know depths of soul will keep me whole.....
In faith now, I wait till beauty rise
In the still of morn, and rosy dawn
--For this new day to soon be born.....

Part III:
Cloaked within my golden room,
penning ode into the night,
perched atop my pillowed bed,
Other self's image reflected,
With seascape dreams above my head.....
Then rise and walk--
facing the mirror, I now stand,
Black bodice lingerie, pink ribbon,
Lace caressing breast, the cup of desire,
naked below and open-faced at last.....

Then gazing back through mirror to the bed,
A vision I see of lover's entwined in tender caress,
And see as well the face of the One
whose body I treasured as my own,
whose soul I have loved as the golden Sun.
He lies with another now upon the bed.
His heart unfettered, his body finally free.
Pleasure to her in joy he gives,
As once he loved and gave to me....

And now I turn once more around,
I face my bed of gold and see
I too have found another lover waits for me.....
In satin sheets of indigo blue,
And golden pillows of moonlit hue,
He waits with black eyes full of light
With body glistening pure and white
—Adonis of my fullest night.....
I go to him
and fall upon his breast again.
He lifts me up to see my face,
Then pulls me back
in love's embrace.....
Tear drops of stars I taste
upon his tongue. In passion's flower
we breathe and move as one.....
His lips are mine
and soul's desire
Lies deep within his eyes eternal.....

This time, with souls entwined,
Pure ecstasy of spirit, form,
Have merged as One.
And in each other's embrace I find ...
I have come home to ME
And him to HE.....